abandon

assalamualaikum. :)

now, i feel like a tonnes of stones, elephants, trucks, klcc on my head has finally gone. and yes, for a moment. say goodbye to the most killer subject for this semester, design of structure and steel. dengar pun macam takut. i thought i have to reward myself for being so committed in studying for the past few days. yes, i have to reward myself with something. dear AJ lets go for some mcdonalds coke. i know there is no different with the coke at koop or anywhere, but its mcdonald. :)

alright. so heres the thing. i've heard the some of the latest news from the newspaper and it really breaking my heart to hear about baby dumping. yes, baby dumping. in malay, 'pembuangan bayi'. its not like baby chicken ke, baby cat ke, or baby buaya ke. its a human baby! dengar tajuk pun dah tau awful gila kan. seriously, i dont know how to give a word to describe the person whoever commit this crime. i would say a 'crime' because you just took the baby's right to live. they are not only regarded as a sin, but may also be a punishable crime.

i'm not sure the exact date, but i've read the newspaper about a 19-years-old girl giving birth at her home (flats) in Selayang (dang, why it has to be Selayang.), about 4am if im not mistaken, and throw the baby off the window from level 2.

and i was like seriously?
you just throw your little baby off the window?
or push it down the toilet bowl?
or just throw it off in any random rivers?
or even throw it in the garbage together with all the waste and rubbish?
how could you do that?
its just insane.

the question is? you have the heart to do that to your little baby? little human that you've been carrying inside your tummy for nine month? give birth for like 5 minutes 'puff' then that's it? maybe everybody would say, that maybe you're in the zone of not-knowing what to do and you can't keep your head straight and keep thinking about 'what if'? easy step, get rid of the baby and settled. yes, you're a genius!

some married couples are dying to have a baby of their own, some of them have to wait for too long to get  a baby. okay, back to the beginning. why do you even make it in the first place? yes, some of us are a teenager that have the desire to try something new or else can't resist the urge of the feeling to be loved. i'm a teenager myself and i'll always pray to Allah to guide me and  give me the endurance from doing anything that i will regret someday. but i just can't bear to see some of the girls that are not even the victim of any sex-abuse or anything like it, but they just offer all the 'adult thing' by themselves for their own satisfaction. and better yet, some of them are school student! that is freaking insane.

okay la, kalau asyik nak tunding jari kat orang problem takkan selesai kan. maybe some girls have their own reason or some bad thoughts in their mind when something like this happened. you know, regret, helpless, being stranded, deceived by false promises, what if their parent knows, their future. they don't even know what to do, how to deal with it, the person they can tell. and eventually choose to abandon their babies.

nasi kadang-kadang jadi bubur jugak. maybe we make mistakes and we wish we can turn back time and hope that it would never happened. but the impact of our mistakes, like the birth of  a baby, we shouldn't take easy on that. give her/him to somebody willing to take them. kalau tak pun call talian nur tu and let them help you. don't make some stupid decision like abandon your own child. there is always a solution for every problems. think wisely. jangan tambah la kita nak tambah dosa lagi dengan membunuh pulak.even if the baby is dead during the birth, just don't do something silly like throw it off anywhere you like. anyhow, he/she still a human being.

okay, sory kalau banyak merepek. i'm not really good in writing. bye :)

love, duya <3