self-satisfaction

Do you ever feel like you're pretending to be happy but deep inside something is missing and all you want is self-satisfaction? You've tried to please everybody but they doesn't seems to see it?

People are keen to see others weaknesses rather than what are they good at. i'd lied if i say i never say bad things about others. thats gonna make me an angel. but i'm not an angel. i'm just a normal human being whom sometimes face failure and try to run away from it. i'm not perfect. i have to learn how to see others in other way round and learn that everybody is just the same. we're the one that build a wall of gap between us and others that made of hatred and wrong instead of right. maybe they do have reasons behind all the things they have done.

when a big boy pick on someone who is smaller than him, there is must be a reason.
when a girl call other girl 'ugly', there is must be a reason.
when a man sit beside his wife grave from morning to dawn, everyday for over a year, there is must be a reason.
when a woman doesn't care if kids call her fat or whatever, and yet she just smile at them, there is must be a reason.

every stories, there is must be a reason.

appreciate what you have in life and color your life with your own beauty. do what your heart says and if that makes you laugh and smile, why have to give up on them? please yourself. one's said that ' you should make one heart happy everyday, and if you can't, make your heart happy'. :)