sometimes everything is pretty messed up

lagi kurang dari dua minggu nak masok kolej balik. all ready made my to-do-list and things-to-buy. bukannya nak jadi perfectionist but sometimes it do help kan. kena organize la jugak kadang-kadang kan. 
but dalam banyak-banyak kat list tu yang paling looking forward nak buat adalah bedazzle my phone. yeah, hot pink. don't ask me why. i just love it. <3
i'm listening to thunder sekarang by boys like girls. aww mann! banyak betol kenangan, memori. kadang-kadang buat kita rindu semua masa lepas but nak buat macam mana. sometimes there is something that we won't get back. gotta move on and let it go.
i felt like i am a jerk. unsure nak buat something coz tak confident dengan apa yang dah ada depan mata. nak lebih daripada yang ada. sakit kan hati orang tak tentu pasal. kadang-kadang tak pernah rasa syukur dengan apa yang ada. takot to take a risk. takde faith in something. pikir lebih - lebih padahal benda takde apa-apa pon.
but i didn't mean to. yeah, memang dah penat try. but even for me, i'm still learning to know who i am. tapi aku tak boleh nak simpan dendam or marah lama-lama. coz its not who i am. i just can't. sooner o later kena belajar mintak maaf and memaafkan.
lepas ni akan belajar untuk terima peoples the way they are. even sometimes it do hurt us but we all have to learn to be a better person kan. so we'll try okayy??

i'm sorry but i'll try to be the way you want to be okayy?