boredom leads to crap

againn. istana negara. boredom. now having my lunch alone coz abah have to go for another inspection stuff. heyy, i do go just now okayy. but since i've got no idea what to do during the session i drag my ass off back to the cabin and have my lunch. yesterday kitchen inspection. it was awesome coz got the chance to check out istana's kitchen and pastry. kinda cool but the "not-cool" thing is i got to be wakil abah for the session and i'm doomed. then lisa, not my sistahh okayy, asked me to get everyone's signature for the attendance. dammit. bende senang je kan tapi sampai kat aku macam hampeh? lack of confidence. didn't have the skill of talking to people and thats i'm worrying about. how am i gonna survive? hard to held up my head high and talk with self-assurance. i always choose to be the spectator rather than the be the playmaker. and that, got to go. 

im keep listenining to avenged sevenfold over and over again for the past couple of hours. nasib baik zacky vengeance cute. grrr.

im missing everybody even more. lagi sebulan and lame lagi. shit. but heyy for you, i feel like we're even far apart. long time ago we used to be bestfriends. ride a bike, play 'rumah-rumah', send notes together. but then it was long time ago. now we've got our own life. our own different path. yeah we've grow up. and that is what i'm scared of. you got your own new friends and i've got mine. yeah we do texting and emailing and everything. but it ain't the same as talking for hours in front of my home, sleepovers, shopping together and all the things we used to do. we going to be a young lady soon. maann, how fast time flies! sometimes i feel like you're not apart of me anymore. but i can't blame you for that. you're busy and same as me. but we doesn't shared years of our life together since we went to different high school. i feel like there is no thick and thin between us now. but im always hoping that we always stay as best friends. 

kawan2 ku, rindu lahh. even da banyak kali pakai word rindu but it still works for me. yea, rindu. *grin*

now we're in june and headed to july. i dunno why im telling you this but im starting to talk crap. need a coke!