self-satisfaction

Do you ever feel like you're pretending to be happy but deep inside something is missing and all you want is self-satisfaction? You've tried to please everybody but they doesn't seems to see it?

People are keen to see others weaknesses rather than what are they good at. i'd lied if i say i never say bad things about others. thats gonna make me an angel. but i'm not an angel. i'm just a normal human being whom sometimes face failure and try to run away from it. i'm not perfect. i have to learn how to see others in other way round and learn that everybody is just the same. we're the one that build a wall of gap between us and others that made of hatred and wrong instead of right. maybe they do have reasons behind all the things they have done.

when a big boy pick on someone who is smaller than him, there is must be a reason.
when a girl call other girl 'ugly', there is must be a reason.
when a man sit beside his wife grave from morning to dawn, everyday for over a year, there is must be a reason.
when a woman doesn't care if kids call her fat or whatever, and yet she just smile at them, there is must be a reason.

every stories, there is must be a reason.

appreciate what you have in life and color your life with your own beauty. do what your heart says and if that makes you laugh and smile, why have to give up on them? please yourself. one's said that ' you should make one heart happy everyday, and if you can't, make your heart happy'. :)

review

hey everyone :)

today is 10 September 2011 and i'm home after non-stop eating for whole day in shahira's house in seremban and beed's house afterward in cheras. i'm full! * but if someone give me a snack like an ice cream or even or pizza, i would take it. lasagna would be perfect! yumm yumm. :)

fyi, i've been writing today's post last night but i don't know how i end up sleeping with my head on the table and my hand still on the keyboard. oaky, so let me start again.

today's post i would like to give my review about an awesome young and talented person i found on youtube. maybe some of you guys have heard about najwa latif and matluhfi90 and their cool videos on youtube. okay, tipu la kalau takde haters kat luar sana yang rase diaorang ni takde bakat or annoying ke apa but in my opinion, they're cool!

call me lame but seriuously i just knew about najwa latif about a week ago when bangchik asked me if i've seen a videos about this girl playing her guitar and her first single 'cinta muka buku'. so when i watch her videos, okay, jaw dropping okay. i've seen some videos of some girls playing guitar and do cover videos, and i think she is better than the rest so far. she has her own personality, style and low-profile ordinary tennage girl. i found her blog , click here and it is cool. so to najwa latif, you got one fans here and good luck for your  future! you go girl! :)

heres another one. matluhfi90. seriously, i laughed like hell when i watched his videos on youtube. i give him big applause because his is not just a video of some guy talking crap in front of camera and upload in on youtube, but he does have something for us to think about. about how to preserve our nature, mother's day dedication, malaysians today, things that make us like 'ooo a'ah kan betul la ape yang die cakap, hehehe' after watching it. i've been watching some of his videos for several times and i kept laughing over and over again. ohh yes, one more thing, dia oghang kedah. :) matluhfi best!

alright thats all for today* macam bagi lecture kat kelas. okay, and maybe you guys have met him before but here is my cute little cutiepie :) miss him.

love, duya <3

whitesnake live in malaysia

*besarkan gambar ni. memang bagi  large sebab nak tunjukkan betapa excited-nya sekarang!

when abah called me and said " whitesnake nak datang Malaysia this October"

i was like,

oh my gosh!

seriously?

on my 100-things-to-do-before-i-die list, i wrote

#32. rocking out at bon jovi or whitesnake concert.

and abah,

please, i really really really wanna go. pretty pleaseeee. i promise i'll be a good kid 

and i wont ask anything (for this time being) from you. 

serious lah, WHITESNAKE KOT!

to all people out there jom kita pegi stadium negara this 30th October

WHITESNAKE LIVE IN MALAYSIA

rock out peeps :)

*puppy eyes ^_______^

p/s: i got to do something for the ticket. saving some money or anything like that for instance? and one thing for sure, i will get the whitesnake shirt. that's a must. :)

i'm not the playmaker

hey peeps :)

okay, high expectations does make me feel stupid. seriously, i'm tired already. tired of hoping and believing in " i wish....". please give a break. please give me the chance to feel that 'you're the man'.sometimes i want you to tell me what to do, be the playmaker. i'm tired of being the psycho maniac person that tell you let's do this and that. 

sometimes i just don't know the right word to let you know whats written on my mind. 

check in :)

it's 5.54pm and i'm checking in from ksj. thanks to broadband because you does make the blogging and all other stuff easier. no doubt. and just for a reminder, abah said "use the broadband for necessary purpose only" but i guess facebooking, blogging and tumblr-ing are quite "necessary stuff" sometimes. *duh

anyway, i got tonnnnnes of work and yes, i haven't done anything yet. but hey, i do read the questions but the solutions, emm that i'm worrying about. for you, your text does make me smiles. :)

purpose: baju raya dot dot.colorful. :)

assalamualaikum everyone :)

"di kesempatan ini saya ingin mengucapkan selamat hari raya dan maaf zahir batin kepada semua kawan-kawan dan semua andai ada terkasar bahasa, tersilap bicara, tak wish hari raya ( birthday sekali sebab im really bad with dates ), terpukul kat mana-mana, buat anda terasa or anyyyyything. di hari raya yang mulia ini, saya ingin memohon ampun dan diharapkan raya kali ini lebih bermakna dari yang sebelumnya, tulus ikhlas edura halim. "

raya story :) :
kampung raya: This year, cek beraya kat ayaq hitam, kedah. Yup, memang jauh perjalanan. tido, bangun, tido, tido, bangun pun tak sampai sampai. raya kali ni kurangggg sikit meriahnya sebab ramai cousin yang tak balik. masingmasing balik kampung wife and hubby masingmasing. yang tinggal kamikami anak dara and teruna je, plus yang masih belum tumbuh gigi.

duit raya: this part is the saddest part. okay, now kena terima hakikat umur nak masuk 20 tahun and susah nak dapat duit raya. duit dok habih ja, dapat duit dok pi berjalan satu aloq setaq nu. padan muka hang duya. belajaq sikit simpan duit. *duh

jalanjalan raya: tahun ni memang sikit pegi beraya. tak tau la sebab apa tapi semua macam penat ja bila nak pi jalan raya. end up, dok depan tv, tengok lagu raya. tapi masa puasa ada la pi padang besaq. hat ni cek tak tau laa, tapi dah jadi tradisi pi padang besaq bila balik raya kedah. plan tak mau pi, lastlast pi jugak. dapat la baju sehelai. haha. *tolong jangan boros

kuih raya and makanmakan raya: macam biasa la, raya kedah dapat makan mihun sup, laksa, ketupat palas, and mcd. err yang tu masuk jugak laa dalam list. tapi thanks to my beloved mum sebab buat kan lodeh and kuah  kacang for me. love u mum.

mercun and bunga api raya: meriam, nada' this year. tapi berani balinng mercun bola. lawan dengan team rumah depan. tapi mereka sangat kuang ajaq, baling sampai betoi betoi depan pintu  umah kami.

gambar raya: haa, yang ni let the picture do the talking :)

ni random je. ada lagi tapi dalam camera lagi satu. and i ada pakwe baru. tadaa! :)

 edura halim is in relationship with amshar zidane :)
p/s: die teramaatttt laa cute. itu je.

sory post berterabur. :)

love, duya <3

random thoughts

assalamualaikum :)
this is one of my favorite photo from tumblr. bukan sebab ashton kutcher or that beautiful-pretty-face-girl-but-i-don't-know-her-name sebelah tu. tapi suka. okay tu je nak bagi tau pasal photo ni. :) tumblrized lagi kan?

today is already the 18th day of puasa. less than a two week will be the end of ramadhan and we will be celebrating our raya aidilfitri. baju raya, kuih raya, balik raya and everything with the word 'raya' at the end are still in my to-do-list. people are all about what color to wear this year, buying baju kurung, buat kuih raya. sadly for me, i haven't buy any baju kurung yet. what i already bought for this raya, black pants (which is to my surprise, now i can wear size *) and pair of shoes which is i've been dreaming to have like really bad. and for this raya, i already think about what i wanna wear and how i wanna match it. beria sangat ke?

okay, sekarang ada banyak sangat sangat sangat  randoms thought dalam kepala. jadi post ari ni pasal apa yang ada dalam kepala ni.
1. kalau laa sekarang ni jadi millionaire, raya kali ni baju bukan setakat 10 pasang, tapi berpasang-pasang laa.
2. teramat laa inginkan oreo chocolate cool blog with pearl. makhruh laa duyaa oiii!
3. nak polaroid camera. fyi, yang ni nakkkkkkkk sangatttttttttttttttttt. -________-
4. mix and match kan baju yang nak pakai untuk raya ni. tapi yang ni tengah buat dalam kepala. :)
5. sedar yang hidup ni macam roller coaster. ada ups and downs. not just to myself but for us as human.
6. miss being old me! :(
7. duit raya tahun ni nak beli kasut lagi. and something daripada four skin.
8. i'm a good listener, but  a bad adviser. and yes, i bad with words but good with silence.
9. loser.
10. nak main boling sepuluh game sambil makan piza and minoum coke. okay yang ni sangat pelik.
11. nak cuddlecuddle dengan baby amshar!
12. nak tengok bulan and bintang sampai tertidur.
13. tak sabar nak makan nasi himpit, kuah kacan, lemang etc. okay about food have to stop duya.
14. cukuplah. kalau nak bagi tau semua sampai buka nanti tak habis. :)

 

i do mean it. 

love,

duya <3 

wayy too long

assalamualaikum kawan-kawan!
okay terdiam sekejap sebab tak tahu nak tulis apa tapi bukan tade cerita tapi terlalu banyak sampai dah pening nak cerita yang mana dulu tapi masih ingin berblogging and jangan marah sebab dah lama tak update sebab facebook pun saya dah dumped untuk beberapa lama and dah jarang online and bukan sebab tak mahu tapi busy untuk mengonline kan diri tapi stay connected okay. panjang tak ayat? :)

hari ni: happy sebab dapat baju raya! yeay! and guess what? i got my dream pants and flats. i am soo tumblrized. and thanks to mr.AJ for the day. tak sabar nak pakai baju raya. best dapat cari baju raya dengan awak. and at last we got own shades kan kan kan? <3

yesterday: berbuka puasa, bowling and karaoke with my classmates. it was fun. same like last year huh? and for you, i think we're good right? good to have you back.

days before yesterday: err, this one was like hundreds of stories to be told. but i may sum up that i just wanna live up my life. this is for real. i wanna make every seconds of my life worth a thousand of fun and crazy stuffs. i'm just tired living with what would people think. i know what i am doing and i don't need your judgement because you just knew a part of real duya. so live with it.

i just wanna be new, alive, fun, and extraordinary duya.  and i'm still trying.

talking to the moon

hello sunshine :)
title for this entry doesn't have nothing to do with the stories. just something that bruno mars ask me to post. percaya tak?

analysis structure - cancel. yeayy. our lecturer, pn kamsiah, her arm got fractured yesterday and we all from 3DDA just wanna say get well soon puan!

tomorrow big date. and yet, i still haven't got any plans. help mee!!!!!

luck

salam everybody. :)
luck. two related words that gonna pop out from your head, bad and good. and i'm having that both. isn't it a "yeayy" or " ohh nooo" ?

bad luck. i borrowed a book from library and to my surprise, i've lost it. aww, mann. first i thought the fine would be like rm30 something or a little bit more than that. but? i won't tell the exact amount but all can say is that the fine really make me felt like, i give someone a knife and ask them to " kill mee now!!!!!". you know what i'm sayin' huh? and yes, thats a bad luck.

p/s: anybody who found a book, title 'dare to forgive', with light blue cover, let me know asap alright. really begging for your concern.

good luck: 2 more days to be a year. and i haven't got any plan yet. wait wait. is that good or bad luck? okay, one word, whatever.

p/s: again. please help me out alright?? -___-

song of sorrow

assalamualaikum.
helloooooo.
date last entry dah lama kan. bukan tak nak update, tapi bila setiap kali tulis, dah tinggal nak click post je, wifi putus. yup, itu sangat seronok. jadi bukan salah jari yang menaip atau pun otak yang berfikir tapi wifi yang gila sngat baik. jangan fikir bukan-bukan okay.

facebook, youtube. everything got soo many things to share nowadays. too many issues. issues that make us think wiser. perhimpunan bersih, our college system etc. and yeah, it's all about life. ups and downs.


i've learn how to let things go and moving on. all i kept saying to myself is that nothing ever going to be the same forever. somethings gotta change and we have to live with it. i want to be stronger and  tougher young lady. being isolated by the human you trust, nahh, it's gonna turn out good if i let it go. i am myself. and i wanna be alive like the person i've been dreaming of. 


anger. fulfilling satisfaction. hatred. a word that can describe a man whom want to speak whats on his head but doesn't even have the chance to say a word, whom been sleeping then a few peoples came in and give them a warnings that you can't post anything on your wall and change anything in your bedroom, whom have the full desire to yell " you're turning into a someone else, good for you" to someone that broke your heart. 


and i'm that man.


as for you, thank you for staying.

love, duya.

dream

hello mother earth and peeps. :)

back to previous entry, i did said something about ' hey earth, kembali berblogging ' right? and yes, i'm doing it now. okay, lets move on.
my life for the past few days, i would say, emm good but maybe in bored way. yeah, you know what i mean. but hey i did make up my mind about something. what i'm gonna do after graduate from utm. what i'm planning to do next. so maybe it's not that bored.
the thing is i'm planning to continue my bachelor across the globe. so place i had in mind right now? United Kingdom. :)  this morning, me, mama, abah, lisa and naim, we went to the AUG office somewhere in Subang Jaya. AUG is an agent that gives free services on advisory about how you can apply to study abroad and also they can do all the application for you regarding which universities you choose. so, for me it kinda helpful because there are someone that can guide you through all the process involves. okay enough about that. for more information, google it! :)
study abroad has been one of my dreams. i feel that by that i can gain some new life experiences and most important, improve myself to be more independent and self-relying. if someone ask me how bad i want it? i would say i want it so bad. but opportunities don't comes that easily huh? ada rezeki ada laah kan. kalau tade it's okay. time master maybe kan. :) do pray for me will ya?

okay i got to sleep. nite world! :)

p/s : actually banyak lagi nak cerita but i don't know how start and i don't know how to end it. University of Portsmouth. Insyaallah :)

food.eat. love

hey there! :)

meet my little annoying sister, elisahalim. repeat, annoying and pretty nuts sometimes. yeah i don't lie. lisa, kau memang gila-gila tapi tetap cute. haha :) so one thing i noticed from the above photo is that, i think i gain weight. yeah, you can spot the different. aiyoo baru berapa hari duduk rumah dah naik, kalau sebulan? nasib baik cuti tak sampai sebulan. 3 minggu lebih je * duh nak sedap kan hati.

sejak dua menjak ni ada minat baru. cooking :) but did i mention i love the cooking show not the pratical part? serious channel food network 706 tu memang channel yang wajib tengok sekarang.  bila tengok diaorang masak macam senang je kan. tapi bila part nak buat tu yang emmm, errrr, huhuhu. but i think yang paling excited bila tengok the food.* here are some facts about me. i dooo enjoy eating. yeah i love to try new dishes. taste the new flavour. especially when it comes to the western dishes. the burgers, salads, steaks, fries. omg, i wanna taste all of that. 

so back to the stories. my fave shows, diners, drives-in and dives. one word. wow! sekarang rase nak super powers yang bole amik all the food dalam tv tu. masuk tangan dalam tv tu and boleh terus ambik. kan best kan kan? okayy dah start merepek. okay laa conclusionnya. nak makan semua yang dalam tv tu. nak tukar course ambik culinary laa. nak jadi chef. one more thing, yang junior masterchef tu, you guys should watch it, memang paling terbaekk. 9 years old kid can cook a chef-like dishes? serious cool gilaa kot.

maybe sekarang tengah lapar kot, tu yang dok cerita pasal makan je. so nak super power tu bole? please please please :(

p/s ( what?? i love *p/s: ): tadi ada tengok sweet video, a girl ambik video her beloved bf. aww sweet. ni yang rundu awak sangat sangat ni. :(

saya nak pegi pantai. tolong saya

assalamualaikum :)

sebenarnya dah bertekad tak nak update blog utnuk hari ni but i guess jari ni terlalu mengada-ngada nak menaip. 

ohh yeah, one word for the past couples of day, boring! i don't know what to do. makan ( of course :) ), tengok tv, online, texting, and repeat all over again. ijane still dekat kolej and gha busy keje. bila nak hang out ni guys? rindu dah ni -__-

tadi jumpa baby amshar. seriously die dah makin besar. and he do got strong kick. no wonder his name suit perfectly, zidanne. haa, nama footballer okay? dah besar kena main bola laa jadi zidanne untuk future pulak.

ohh yeah, my current need sekarang adalah new handphone * i'm working on it. abah dah janji kan kan kan? high waist pants. err actually i don't know the exact name for the pants. yeah yeah, sue me. but its light brown and ohh god i don't know how to explain. but its a pair of pants. :) and one more thing i need more than anything is a break. yeah, relaxing whole day on a beach without doing anything, just sit there having a coke, enjoy the breeze. oh my god, im craving for that. dalam entry before ni pun ada mention pasal ni. thanks for tumblr because ada gambargambar yang buat hajat di hati ni tercapai laa, sikitt. :)

p/s: rindu mata juling AJ laa. :(

end of semester 4

hello mother earth and peeps!

tadaa! new look for my blog. i know i know. tumblr right? but what the heck? i think all the stuff in tumblr is toooooooooo adorable. i can't find any background from the web that have the kind i want. so i made my own background. this one is gonna be my other tumblog, but with slight different, i can be the typo maniac. :) whatever it is, keep reading okay! :)

haa nak cakap malay pulak laa. and guess what? *oppss hehe. sudah abes tahun dua. cepat masa berlalu. serius cepat. rasa macam semalam baru isi borang nak masuk kolej, kemas sapusapu bilik dengan FA, pegi main arcade jj wangsa maju dengan merekamereka ni, lepak mc'd dengan AJ and so much more. drama queen kan. cakap macam nak habis diploma dah. padahal ada lagi one year. lols. -_____- 

all i'm trying to say is that there is soo much memories to be remembered. the good and the bad, the sweet and the sorrow, the laugh and the cry. really. friends, yang dulu lain sekarang lain, zaman seronok sekali, gelak sekali, tapi makin lama makin hilang semua tu. maybe we got our own reason why we act like a fool huh? we thought maybe silence is the best answer. but seriously, maybe from the outside, we can act like everything was fine like back then but from the inside, there is something that wrong that eat you alive. but until then no one speaks. 

dah dah. tu cerita yang sedihsedih. back tu happy mode! :)

to all my friends farah, linda, suhaila, hazwani, yan, pika ,as and semuasemua laa. take care cuti ni. lagi tiga miggu kita jumpa okay! to AJ jaga diri jugak. always drive safe and jangan bawak laju. kalau tau sampai 180, siap laa. love you guys. you are the smoke to my high. :)

cuti ni blog insyaallah akan di update selalu. ye laa, takkan nak duduk rumah tanam anggur je. baik online kan. keep in touch yaww. :)

p/s: kalau perasan font entry beforebefore ni kejap kecik kejap besar, kejap bulat kejap panjang kan. sorry for any inconvenient. tak tau laa kenapa. :)

last but not least

sistem elektrikal dan mekanikal

 finger crossed!

wish me luck

:)

examen final

hello peeps! :)

today is 5th may 2011 and hari kegelapan untuk semua student 2DDA. *kot laa. sebab apa? soil mechanic susahhhh gilaaaaaaaa! ;( study lain, lain yang keluar. sekarang mengharapkan yang terbaek je la. kepada semua my classmates, semoga berjaya laa ye. *___________*

sebab terlalu frust 'seronok' dengan paper hari ni, yan, wani and me, kitaorang dengan membawa hati nya pegi alpha angle. lepas geram dekat arcade sambil teman wani beli barang. and babe, seronok ye kena kejar dengan dinosour? haha.memang terbaeekk! :)

now i got two more to go. and guess the best part is * drumroll, semua KILLER SUBJECT! orang lain dok sibuk packing barang nak balik, kitaorang dok tekan kalkulator lagi. nak balik jugak. ;( exam ni menghabiskan masa study bersama AJ. cuba yang terbaekk kan AJ? doa sama-sama ye. 

bila timetime exam macam ni, tension tipu laa kalau tade. yup, memang tipu kalau tade. serius tipu. then dari tension tu laa, masingmasing akan start buat bendabenda yang diri sendiri tak paham kenapa buat. antara yang sampai sekarang tak paham, mandi lama sebab nak bau lifebouy lamalama, tengok maharaja lawak berkali kali *jozan rocks lol ,  tibatiba rasa nak beli belon colorcolor yang boleh terbang tu, facebook sambil buku calculus kat depan( yang ni kalau tesion ke tak tension ke sama je ) -_______-, nak makan something yang tak penah makan, pegang camera 24/7, and macammacam lagi. tak lama lagi tukar jadi zombie mata panda laa kot.

conclusion nye doakan final sem ini ehh. terima kasih. 

p/s: dah makan tapi masih lapa. AJ, jom makan jom. :)

kembali

hello peeps :)
it's been tooooooooo long tak berblogging. nak kena vacum balik semua habukhabuk ni.
it's been hectic life since my last update. *hectic laa sangat.

fyi, i'm stil alive now and akan kembali berblogging. banyak nak cerita tapi hari ini turn untuk pakai broadband dah panjang sangat sampai bertekak dah ni. -________-

but, but, but i'm gonna be back later. okay. hate to leave all my idea nak tulis but demi adik adik tersayang, kak duya akan bagi korang online. haa, baik tak??

ciao. :)

" I Never Told You "

 " I Never Told You "

I miss those blue eyes
How you kissed me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
I can't believe I still want you
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Every time I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to when I'm not
Around you
It's like I'm not with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
I can't believe I still want
You
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
(still you're gone)
Can't believe that I still want
You
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you 

- colbie caillat - 

p/s: ada banyak cerita tapi takde mood untuk menulis. let the lyrics do the talking.

snapshots

assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera kepada semua. :)

mood: undefine.
current need: oreo cheesecake. sape baik tolong pos kan kat rumah i bole tak?
latest updates:
sekarang in the middle of holidays. results dah keluar. tak mahu comment banyakbanyak. but alhamdulillah. kepada semua classmate aku, hope for the best yeah!
merindui semua kawankawan, teman rapat, dan semua laa. nak sebut nama sorangsorang takot sampai malam tak habis. ijane and gha, lapacrew, the six, kelada crew, kentalion,cousincousin tersayang, clark kent saya. rindu lahh kamu semua. :]

cuti kali ni tak tahu lahh kenapa dalam kepala ni ada suarasuara yang sibuk je cakap " tak yah lahh pegi keje, nanti kene bangun pagi". haa end up duduk depan laptop harihari, makan, tido, tengok tv, makan again without doing anything. bagus kan. ari tu ikot abah pegi keje sehari je dah malas nak ikot dah. bagus sangat lahh tu duya. ehh tapi kalau setakat jadi driver tu okayy lagi laa. but kalau nak tolong kemas site tu macam malas sikiiiitttt. yes, baguss duya. well done! lepas ni kalau nak keluar duit takde padan muka. gotta work for living kan. semangat tolong laa datang! i need you right now.

sebelum ni ada penah cerita pasal dslr kan. keinginan untuk ada satu. kepada my abah terima kasih kerana merealisasikan impian kami tu. canon eos 550D. walaupun kene share ramairamai, but it was fun. seriously, i'm still a beginner. tak reti sangat about all this stuff but still belajar sikit about the ISO and semua laa. but bole lah sikit. still got more to learn. so here are some shots yang aku and lisa snap. haa kalau tak cantik tu, enjoy jugak laa ye. actually tak tau laa gambar ape yang nak jadi subjek. so its kinda random je.

 p/s again: gambar ni semua random je. :)
credits to afnan, erin, naim, lisa, bunga, pak long, awan, teddy, chip and semua yang sudi jadi bahan untuk aku snap.  

yang lain update nanti okay. :)

XOXO,

duyaa.. :)